When you stop looking:

I keep thinking that i am the one for you just like you are the one for me but- 

But I see your eyes roaming still

Still scanning every femine being

And i wonder if wondering would still be wondering if i wondered about what you wonder about as you look at them;

The ones with brows on fleek and nails done, 

The ones with inches running down the lengths of their backs in sleek smooth 100% brazillian/(slash) peruvian motion all in the notion of slaying, 

Queens

Wearing nothing but the most "expensive" labels 

Giving them all the audacity to walk like they have diamonds inbetween their thighs

But between me and you

we both know the mine has been long closed, 

There is no gold there 

except the ones in their teeth of course,

Glimmering and shimmering to cover the fact that they can't even finish a course

They aren't in the tribe of Einstein are they?

I see you fixated on their "drip" and it rips my soul that right here at your side i am transparent enough for your eyes to travel through and still look...

Haven't you found it yet?

Am i not it?

   Then, then why is your hand holding mine and hearts beating in perefct sync?

Why is your naked body absorbing the heat of mine like you're the moon and i am your sun?

Am i not the one to give birth to your son?

And just so you know:

The day your eyes get tired of following them all the way through

The day you stay put 

The day you are finally unbothered 

The day you you realise they aren't worth your time and dime

And manage differentiate the lemons from lime

And learn that looks are not everything

The day you stop looking, I'll be here holding your hand..

And when you stop looking

I hope you see me for all that i am

I hope you see that my physical short does not rhyme with my mental height

I hope you see my brains and dare their expansion

I hope you see my remarkable strength and resillience before falling for my sun shaming smile

I hope you see this gleam in my eyes and all the kindness they share

I hope you see this burning in my heart and catch flame

I hope you see all the love i have in my hands for you,

The healing i bring

The growth i trigger

The opioid that i am, for all your pains

I hope you see that i do not have foundation on my face but i am ready to lay a concrete one for you to build your home and i promise to seal it with warmth and laughter 

With the perfect contour that will match all your efforts and wishes

And no it will not be make-up or a fantasy but a reality, just like pearls

when you stop looking, I'll be here.

Or maybe not-

The clock is always ticking remember??